Final Decision

And i’ve come to the final..

I was wondering why people tend to be in dilematic situations, getting confused to decide something till they cannot sleep the whole night..  Today i know that it’s because of our own longings.

Man has so many wishes, dreams, desires and all willings. To achieve ‘em all sometimes they dont ever think to consider which one should be the most wanted one... no wonder  though  God had given all the things inside the paradise but warned only one thing,  still men fell down into the sin. The nature of wanting everything is sometimes the problem.

When my friend gave me the information about youth exchange program i kept asking myself “do i really want it?” while at the same time i also asked God for my dream to continue my study. I was thinking hard to decide. What made me come to the final decision was just a simple question.. “what’s my motive of applying that program?”

It was quite surprising when i know the answer...yes, just for spending the limit of my passport before its expiration. What a bad motive..embarrasing! lol

Yes, that’s me. Just imagine if i decided to join the program and i was interviewed, then they would ask  my motive to participate the program..you know, at that time i’d be such a hyprocrate, telling them my perfect lying..:) thank God, i didnt apply.

So, here i am today with my crazy decision.. i’m still holding my passport and asking God if it pleases Him,  at least He will give me a chance to go somewhere before my passport is expired.

Well, that’s life, full of choices. You’ve got to dare yourself make a choice unless you’ll be left behind. Remember, every choice has its own risk as what i’ve done. I probably have lost the chance to go abroad but i have chosen a good decision be honest to my conscience. The other thing is that i just made a choice to focus on my dream, gaining the scholarship to continue my study..yes, struggling for the scholarship this year..

“Blessed be GOD, Who has not turned away my prayer nor His mercy from me..” Psalm 66:20

Be blessed,
Haniva