Today & "Once Upon A time" on the 6th June

"if you have been walking so far till today, will you still keep a desire to turn back?!".... (my inquiry)

6 June is the day today and the most favorite "once upon a time" for me. why I say today is one of the most important day? for the interesting journey of my life, about today and yesterday (past time) accidentally happens and happened on this date. :)
6 June is all about my dream and my favorite past obsession...about today and once upon a time :)

--Today--
The day is today coz on the 6th June I start struggling for the scholarship. The application is open today so the battle begins. I've already downloaded the form. It means that the first step of all the processes i'm gonna go through has been started. the Valley of Elah is going to the second step. The covenant has been established so now my faith is walking along with my consciousness. Consciousness about the "Hebron" in front of me with its goliath and the strategy i'm gonna arrange for this battle. The "Philistine's army" is now in array against me. They are standing right before me. I should start thinking about the battle. It means it's no use turning back.. no need to hope for something in the past. My focus is on the vision. seeing the things eyes cannot see, having the promise that people say " impossible". All I have to do is just to prepare, to arrange. I need not to fear or worry yet do my portion, fulfill my part that God has given. so, my today, the 6 June 2011 is all about the battle arrangement.

--Once Upon A Time--
there was something in the past on this very day that seems to turn my back on "Yesterday". I've talked to my self many times;

the star is too high, you can't pick one... stay awake Haniva.....!

lol but my heart is trying to lie me by bringing me into the stupid thing i used to do--turning back on the star--. I know it's too high but I don't know why I like seeing its light. perhaps its sparkle is so glittered that my eyes can't ignore or maybe it's just my own narrative i'm writing about coz I dont wanna stop the story on this phrase "Once Upon A Time".

Nevertheless, I cannot stay in my favorite once upon a time as I'm not living in a fairy tale. I'm living in "a conscious world" where "today" always takes place and tomorrow is to follow.. I'm not the writer of this long journey but God Himself is the one who writes my life. Once Upon A time will always stay in my fairy tale but never comes to the real world. It's pretty true and i'm very sure..
So if I should write my own fairy tale and place myself there, the good story might be like this;

"once upon a time there was a bright star. It shone brighter and brighter for all people on the earth. One day a common girl saw its light and started to call the star her brightest star. It didn't belong to anyone but the girl.. she didn't know whether the star would fall to the earth but she always wished that the day was today. so she kept waiting till the day was today to say this little prayer for the star "welcome to earth my star...wish your sparkle glitter brightly"......"

Thus, it's all about today, the 6th June 2011. For all the inquiries about tomorrow, regardless of my heart's desire for turning back, my answer is always-No I will Not--. But even if it has to, it'd be only in my fairy tale.. yes, it's only in my fairy tale which will never be in my real today for my today is the day of arrangement not the day of turning back.