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Keep on Hoping, Heart The glimpse of me is still wanting for the outside As I am looking through the window, I wonder what may come after sorrow Maybe there’s a chance, says my heart. Yes, a way of making me reach the outside. Keep on hoping, heart. keep on hoping. Keep on walking, mind, keep on walking. One day you’ll go through the door, not through the window. That day you’ll walk there, to the outside To reach what you’ve kept in heart since the last tide. ( Kantor Bahasa NTT, March 2015)

#LatePost The best thing I've ever had on Valentine's day; a love letter from you, mr. j07101984... If everything has been written down, so why worry... Menjelang 14 February 2014 Melbourne, 13 Feb, 11.02 pm Selesai sudah tugas individual article summary untuk disubmit besok via LMS. Nick telah bekerja dengan sangat baik di Bali ketika itu. Sebelum ini juga tugas mengedit report assignment telah selesai. Cukup menuntut keseriusan untuk menyatukan Vietnam, Bangladesh, Srilanka, dan Indonesia dalam sebuah literature research dan acadmic report. Tapi sebuah kepuasan ketika semuanya selesai. Benar kata orang, mengeluh sambil bekerja akan membunuh kegembiraan dalam menyelesaikannya, dan terlebih menghilangkan kepuasan untuk hasilnya. Tapi siang tadi lebih gila (Aussie; cool, excellent, awesome). Siang yang fantastis setelah mengunjungi Melbourne Zoo dalam excursion program IAP Uni Melb. Kanguru, koala, jerapah, zebra, merak, gajah, singa, harmau, dan teman-te...

  Distance... I hate it but I have been such an expert in holding on it. I heard some people say long distance relationship never works. I know for some people it is not working but I have been struggling for it. I cant say it's different to me. I hate it... I hate to have distance in my relationship but I have no choice.. I can say good bye.. it's easy. But can my heart bear it? I am too afraid of losing. So, I choose to stay in distance though the pain of missing is the same with breaking. If getting hurt is part of love, why don't we enjoy the time of sorrow?! Sometimes we laugh but we will never skip tears. As it is still a life on earth, I know everything can happen under the sky. Shall I dance under the rain?? Probably Yes coz I have made my own choice... Staying.. Distance.. I hold you again and again.... Give me enough joy but less tears coz I wanna keep some of them for happiness..

7 October. Raining. I have been looking forward to October 7th because there are two things I love from this day; Joseph's birthday and raining. His birthday has been such a blessed day, that's why even I have to repeat it over and over, I still love to say; "happy birthday Mr. 0710. You make 07 October always special in my life." I am thankful for this moment coz I know that you grow a day older and see how this sentimental fool can be.., when she tries to write a birthday song, when she thinks so hard to make your day, when she's getting lost in all her thoughts, when she waits a whole day to say.... "I love you" If everything has been written down why worry we say, it's you and me with a little left of sanity

Do you believe that there's a hidden connection between lovers? I don't really think it makes sense but it happens quite often between me and my boy. Last week we were missing each other, so I asked my friend to make a poem about 'missing someone'. At the same time he also read a poem with the same theme and decided to send the poem to me. We laughed at ourselves for thinking of the same thing. It's kinda silly but it might be true that there's something linking you with your lover, something we call LOVE and this love works in supernatural ways that we can never understand with our mind.. lol. How does it work? I don't know.. just experience it by yourself.  By the way, here's the poem he sent to me. I love this poem as it really describes what I'm feeling.. waiting for the one I love. If you need the explanation on this poem just click this . Enjoy reading!!! The river-Merchant’s Wife: A Letter Ezra Pound (1885-19720 While my hair ...

when the footprints bring my mind close to you

"..........Aku ingin kamu selalu ada di sana, menemaniku memahami rumitnya hidup." (YMT) on Feb' 14th 2009

I only know what I know The passing years will show You’ve kept my love so young, so new And time after time You’ll hear me say that I’m So lucky to be loving you (Time After Time--Evening Movie)

Say I am crazy but I just fell in love with this actor... Patrick Wilson I ever watched several movies he starred but I don't know why I just got snared when I watched 'Evening' . He was so cool in that movie with his lovely eyes.. I don't know for sure why I got fallin' to that movie because I don't think that it was really WOW but perhaps the director and the story writer (the movie was adapted from a novel with the same name) were successful in transferring the soul or feeling from the book into the scenes. Moreover, the settings are also wonderful with beautiful beach, boat, trees, cottage, all are beautiful. They might be the trigger I fell in love, except the fact that Patrick is worth-admiring!!! hehehe Anyway, Patrick Wilson played as Harris-a doctor whose enchantment has attracted two girls. I think the director was a genius for picking Wilson as Harris coz I found him very fitted to the image of Harris. You can find no reason not to admiri...

It's a little bit weird tonight that I write about love.. I dont really understand why I write this kind of post.. well, perhaps I am truly in love.. I know  many people say that walking with someone would be tiring... yet, the fact I've found so far is that there's no tiredness in love. Whenever you think you're tired so you want to quit walking, there's always a strength within you that makes you walk and walk, and that's is why I am still walking through the path called 'love' till today. Tonight there's no other better words I could say than 'Thank God for I have him in my life'. Thank God for letting him paint my life with his green.. I don't know for sure how long I could stand walking.. Nevertheless, as long as God is holding our hands I believe we can keep walking in all indeterminancy of life. If ,yet one day the worst fact I face is -I quit walking-, I will never regret the miles we've passed by together with God. ...

One thing I love from November and December is when the Flamboyan tree blooms. Flamboyan is its Indonesian name but Kupang people usually name it 'pohon sepe' or sepe tree. Flamboyan Tree I love this tree so much on rainy season. the flowers are the mixture of orange and red and 'we' (me and my friends) usually call it 'Sakura from Kupang'.. Lol. If Japanese have Sakura, we have Flamboyan tree in Kupang which is as beautiful as Sakura. When I walk home after school along the street where Flamboyan trees grow, I feel like it's no matter how far the road I wanna walk. This tree grows along the road to my house. This tree has accompanied me for some stories. One of the stories is when I walked home together with the one I call 'the green'. It was a beautiful moment coz we were walking together after raining so the road was wet and it was so cool, then the red Flamboyan adorned our road with their beauty. I wonder that moment would happen a...

Dear Heavenly Father, Am I too far to be reached out? Have I been walking too far till I dont know the way back home? or.... is it the home I want? Show me YOUR WAY before I walk a little bit further that I dont know how to turn back.. If it's not my home, please turn me back to my destination yet if it's my home, guide me there safely... Your crying baby, Haniva

Sometimes, posting your feeling (including anger) on Facebook will just show the incapability of yourself in solving your own problem.. this is today's worth lesson for me.. I always post whatever I feel on Facebook if I am online. I never think about other's response coz for me I'll get more relieved when I read other comments which are not related to the context of my status. It really amuses me that I dont have time to think about my anger or problems.  Nevertheless I never think about other's feeling, especially those whom my status refer to.. and this time it's about the one I love. yup, yesterday I was a little bit angry with him so I wrote something on my wall that is only understood by two of us. I never thought that it would hurt him.. No, I never thought before coz I just wanted to make myself relieved.  Today, after he read he called me and poured out all his feeling, about how that post had really annoyed him. I was stubborn at first. I did not want ...

Suddenly I recall of an old song by a group band from Indonesia-Sheila on 7 'Buat Aku Tersenyum' (in English; 'make me smile'). When I listened to this song for the first time, I was about in junior high school and I was freaking interested in this song.. I love both its lyrics and music.. It's so easy listening... Tonight I still remember this song and it reminds me on the green of my life... we've not had regular contact on phone for almost a week.. Yeah, I sent him some texts just to say good night so did he, yet it was just too flat... I miss our time when we debate so many things, when my anger was about to explode and he listened to me, trying to calm me down... I miss him for giving me a shoulder when I am too tired to look up... I wish he would be thinking the same....so whenever my heart sings a love song, he would be able to listen to the song, there, in thousand miles that separate us.. datanglah sayang dan biarkan ku berbaring ( come dea...

how many times have you experienced this situation? you want to text others but you think too long and when you want to send the text you find that it's too late coz the person you wanna text has got the text containing information she/he needs from others....then what you do is to save it as a draft... draft..yup, that's the place where unsent texts or ideas being stored. Today i also have this embarrassing experience. it's not about texting someone but my idea to help the old woman and her grandson. the story begins when i went to having lunch with my friends in a small cafe near the school. my friend wanted to have 'nasi campur' for lunch but i ordered chicken noodle. the cafe where we went doesnt have chicken noodle but there's another seller next to the cafe sells. the place isn't like a house. just a tent with chairs and table, so my friend asked me to sit in the cafe but ordered the noodle outside. i agreed. i ordered first and then we entered t...

if there's a thing to make 'us' (read; me n my boyfriend) close, i wouldn't think it hard to tell you that it's only because of the times we spend for debating.. yup, that's the funniest fact about my relationship. we hardly have the same opinion about things around us or the way we see life. i wonder how we can still be 'together' till today, if it's not a miracle?? lol we always argue for everything.. even if we have the same opinion, it's really difficult to memorize what it is about coz all that i keep in my long term memory is all things that we argue. :) last week we discussed a topic that eventually went to the hottest one "why do Christian call God 'Father'? it started when we talked about our tradition in East Nusa Tenggara especially on traditional proposal ceremony. this proposal usually happens a day before the wedding day. i told him that i like the way people in our tribe do for this ceremony. they always hide ...

my  heart is colorful For You whisper me "something"  and stand by me with ur love Thus, I <3 U..yes..I do...

Morgen..Tomorrow...Besok.. why does it seem so mysterious? why do i have to be so curious? I wont feel like-- "really want another day come over soon"-- if he didn't say --"I wanna talk something with you tomorrow"--. I don't really like this sentence.. why? of course it intrigues me a lot.. if he wants to talk "anything" about tomorrow, why doesn't he reveal it at the day?! but he told me few minutes ago for the things he wants to reveal tomorrow... :( I wish I could read his mind..or if there's any new sophisticated engine created for reading one's mind, I don't care how expensive it is, I'll spend my all savings for getting one.. (lol.... r u sure Haniva?!) but that's what we call life.. none ever knows what will follow... I can only hope for the good news coz if it's in reversal, I don't know how withered I would be.. so, tomorrow--I beg you, please give me a good news! "You do not know about tom...

to you in another island...:) I like hurting you but don't wanna see you hurt I like making you mad but don't wanna see you furious I always blame you but don't want to see you guilty I like doing stupid things but in all things i do I just want to make you aware of my existence every minute and every second.. Today when you get withered I'm confused where to find a place to rest like a sojourner longing for a tree in the desert, a tree whose green can cool up his soul like a kid crying for an ice cream, an ice cream that can cheer her up so want I, more than just a tree and an ice cream I want to see your green These pointless words come from the real me deep inside my heart a prayer is lifted up for you in thousand miles away my heart whispers...... get well soon my shady green coz I'm faded away if you are withered don't ask me how just realize that I mean it :) from another me, Haniva "Ur Q"

Korean drama..yes, that's one thing I'm addicted to.. i think most of women will feel the same once they watch Korean drama. not only because of the cute and handsome actors but the story is very interesting, much more interesting than Indonesian shop operas--which are too long and have no end. I've watched many Korean dramas and movies and have my favorites. "endless love, sorry i love you,Thank you, and Cinderella's step sister" are some of my favorite dramas. recently I've been watching "Pasta" and have fallen in love with its story. it means that i have to search more about this story but last night  i recalled one old drama that ever caught my attention. it's Cinderella step sister. i always remember this drama for two things; the first thing, the male character "ki hoon" who is very fascinating (i love calm characters like him) and the latter (probably it's the main reason i still love this drama) is its soundtrack ...